Big Changes

This week has been crazy! First of all, last Friday I went back on Lupron again to put me into menopause for another six months. I started last June and the Lupron gave me a life for the summer, but due to the damage it could cause my bones, I had to go off. I just kept getting worse and worse after I went off of it, so my doctor put me back on so I could have some time to feel better while we try to figure out a long-term solution. So far, it has been a week since the shot, but I have already had a few hot flashes which was the only side effect I had last year. I also have started bleeding a tiny bit which is okay I guess. I mean, I have been messing with my hormones so much recently, and a year is a long time to go without a period (It would have been a full year in two weeks). I am cramping like crazy, but hopefully the Lupron starts working soon. 

On top of the hormonal changes, I spent five hours on Friday, and eight hours Saturday and Sunday doing hardcore lifeguard training. The second day, I had a really bad episode and ended up bawling in the locker room for an hour, but my wonderful momma brought me pain meds and I was able to finish the weekend, and I am officially a lifeguard for my local aquatic center. This goes to show that even though Endo has taken opportunities away from me, it can't take EVERYTHING away from me. I feel terrible 90% of the time, but I still managed to become a lifeguard. It wasn't easy (with endo the only easy things are crying and sleeping) but it was worth it. I get to spend my summer saving lives and teaching kids to swim... and get paid. I can't think of a better way to spend my summer. I just need this Lupron to help so I can actually get out of bed. 

If you are struggling with Endo, or anything really, stay strong. Don't let these stupid diseases take away your dreams. You can do it. I promise.