Almost anyone with endometriosis, or other chronic illnesses, has had to make some sacrifices. Next week is Spring Break for my school, and one of my best friends had invited me to go with her and her parents to Disney World. Of course I said yes... I mean who doesn't go to Disney with their best friend for a week?! Well I accepted this offer a few months ago; around the same time I went off of Lupron. Ever since then, I have been going downhill. Slowly at first, but all of a sudden I could no longer get out of bed.
Today, my mom asked me to pack for my trip, since I missed school yet again. I woke up at 7am to take my morning meds, and again at 11am to take my meds again, but ended up sleeping right through my 3:00 meds. I didn't wake up until 5:15pm and realized I slept my whole day away. My mom and I sat down and discussed my Disney plans, and after a long talk, and crying, we decided it would be best to cancel my Disney plans. Both of us are heartbroken, as well as the family who was going to take me. I can barely lay in bed without terrible pain. Taking two days to drive there, then walking from sun-up to sun-down, not to mention the long lines in the Florida heat, and then two more days of driving back, would kill my body.
I was soooooo excited for this trip and all of my doctors were working extra hard to make sure I could go. It breaks my heart that I had to cancel and not spend the week with the nicest family you'll ever meet in the most magical place on earth. I know this is the right thing to do for my body, but I can't help but feel so bad about not going.
Women all over the world make sacrifices all the time for their Endo. Whether it is cancelling a huge trip, or just not spending time with you even though you miss them, please know that they would most definitely be doing whatever it is they can't. We do not cancel so we can just "hang out" or "be lazy". We cancel because we cannot get out of bed and we don't want to be a burden on you when you can't do what you want. I want my friend to have a great time in Disney World, and I feel that if I were to go with her, I would just hold her back. If you know someone with a chronic illness that interrupts their life, please do not get angry or frustrated when they can't do something. If you are someone with a condition like this, stay strong, it can only go up from here.
I decided to start a blog because my mental and physical conditions are constantly changing, and I want to help encourage people with similar experiences, and let them know they are not alone.